Checking In After Too Long...
Well, the project of my last entry some 3 months ago went nowhere. I haven't lost a single pound, in fact I fluctuate upward a pound or two. I guess I just don't have the mindset I cultivated last year which enabled me to reach the goal I set. I feel good where I am, I like the way my clothes fit, I like the way I feel when I move. The notion that I could feel even better, look better....seems greedy somehow. I feel like I should be grateful to have accomplished what I did last year, enjoy where I am.
My chief issue is exercise. I still can't make it what I want it to be: an integral part of my day, like brushing my teeth, drinking tea. Even though I know that exercise has far-reaching, almost amazing benefits. Not only for weight loss and maintenance, but for mood issues, cognitive health, longevity - quality and quantity of life. To read the latest research, getting a variety of exercise is a panacea.
I know all this. And still it's a struggle getting myself away from writing, from making art, from reading - getting myself up and moving. I shall keep trying, though.
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I've been feeling pretty stressed lately - after my winterlong retreat (which was wonderfully relaxing and recharging, I plan to do it again) I began to accrue commitments and responsibilities that, when listed, floored me. I wasn't supposed to do that.
And my house is pretty cluttered, especially my work areas, and that's just a big energy suck.
I listed all that I'm doing, many projects, deadlines, events that culminate in the fall. Here's what I wrote in my journal about that:
Still feeling overwhelmed, but realizing that I have a choice about how I look at these things. I realized that this is exactly what happens when I’m faced with decluttering. I am constantly seeing the whole picture of what must be done and it is overwhelming. I really need to understand how to focus on parts of the big picture. Otherwise I am stunned and paralyzed. Inertia. There must be something positive about being able to visualize the whole of things, so I don’t want to lose that ability. I just want to control it. Otherwise I’m just doomed to feeling the hopelessness of trying to accomplish it all.
A full and rich life will have a wide range of details and activities, I think. Do I really want it all to be finished and have nothing scheduled, nothing to be involved in creating? Of course not. I have to learn how to view the richness of my life in a different way. And that’s a start, right there...using the phrase ‘the richness of my life’ instead of thinking of it as ‘the overwhelming number of things I’m committed to doing.’
And there you go - that's what I'm thinking about today.
My chief issue is exercise. I still can't make it what I want it to be: an integral part of my day, like brushing my teeth, drinking tea. Even though I know that exercise has far-reaching, almost amazing benefits. Not only for weight loss and maintenance, but for mood issues, cognitive health, longevity - quality and quantity of life. To read the latest research, getting a variety of exercise is a panacea.
I know all this. And still it's a struggle getting myself away from writing, from making art, from reading - getting myself up and moving. I shall keep trying, though.
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I've been feeling pretty stressed lately - after my winterlong retreat (which was wonderfully relaxing and recharging, I plan to do it again) I began to accrue commitments and responsibilities that, when listed, floored me. I wasn't supposed to do that.
And my house is pretty cluttered, especially my work areas, and that's just a big energy suck.
I listed all that I'm doing, many projects, deadlines, events that culminate in the fall. Here's what I wrote in my journal about that:
Still feeling overwhelmed, but realizing that I have a choice about how I look at these things. I realized that this is exactly what happens when I’m faced with decluttering. I am constantly seeing the whole picture of what must be done and it is overwhelming. I really need to understand how to focus on parts of the big picture. Otherwise I am stunned and paralyzed. Inertia. There must be something positive about being able to visualize the whole of things, so I don’t want to lose that ability. I just want to control it. Otherwise I’m just doomed to feeling the hopelessness of trying to accomplish it all.
A full and rich life will have a wide range of details and activities, I think. Do I really want it all to be finished and have nothing scheduled, nothing to be involved in creating? Of course not. I have to learn how to view the richness of my life in a different way. And that’s a start, right there...using the phrase ‘the richness of my life’ instead of thinking of it as ‘the overwhelming number of things I’m committed to doing.’
And there you go - that's what I'm thinking about today.